Monday, 31 October 2011

One Step Further

The opening of my new novel. The one I plan to write in a month thanks to the National Novel Writing Month challenge!
Na had noticed the old woman’s expression as she’d arrived for work; glancing over at Na’s bed suspiciously as she settled herself into her own pitch two beds over. Na had looked up and tried to smile at the woman but she had turned her head away as soon as their eye’s met and Na was left looking at the parting in her long black hair. The woman’s hair was young, Na thought, glossy and thick without any curl. Na’s own hair was thick and difficult to manage, she mostly tied it back at the start of each day and only let it down again once she was getting ready for bed. She glanced back over at the woman hoping that she’d caught her off guard and that this time she may be rewarded with a smile or a word of greeting. The woman kept her face down as she leaned over the mattress on her bed fussing the sheet into perfect smoothness and hanging towels and sarongs from the poles of the grass roof. Her face was pinched into sour concentration, she was old, Na saw and realised that was what made her hair so noticeable. Na turned back to her own bed but the sheets were still perfect from when she made them half an hour ago. She’d gotten here far too early but it was her first day and she was nervous. 
The pitch had been arranged by her massage teacher. Na had worked hard on the course and her teacher had grown to like her. She had taken her aside on the last day and asked if she had plans for work. Na had told her not yet, she had planned to ask around the salons and beach stands. This had been arranged the next day. Na had met the beachfront owner and agreed that half of her fee from each customer would be paid in rent. It was the usual arrangement and she wasn’t surprised by it. The bed itself was a raised bamboo platform with a grass roof; a mattress could be collected from the owners shed each morning and placed on the bed. Sheets and towels were Na’s responsibility, although there were thin drapes in the shed that could be tied to the roof poles in order to afford the customer privacy. Na understood that this might be quite favourable to a client being massaged on the busy beach. Being prone underneath a strangers touch was not a state she’d like to be observed in herself.
She fiddled with her curtains which for now were tucked back in order to display the clean, empty bed and advertise her availability. There were few people on the beach yet. Most potential customers were still digging into the five star buffet in their gorgeous hotels Na imagined. Fishing boats occasionally chugged past with humming motors but otherwise the only sound was the crashing waves. Na refolded a large white towel and hung it back over the bamboo rail of the bed. Her colleague was squatting in the sand watching the beach and waiting for the first tourists to make a break from their hotels. There was the sound of wood scraping as someone arrived at the nearby bar to open in for business. The bar was just that; a plywood bar area that folded up on itself to turn into a locked wooden box overnight. The owner began unstacking plastic chairs into the sand with a click of plastic against plastic. This was how the sounds broke one on top of each other into the rhythm of the day. 
Until Ing arrived. Ing arriving wasn’t a steady layer of sound to add to the others it was an explosion. 

Friday, 23 September 2011

Enlightened


I stole myself to stand in front of you.
Clasped hands and bowed head.
Enlightened soul.
I was three sticks of incense in.
When the coach party arrived.
A bee line, we’d have once said,
For your gilded form.
I had to stand aside,
Old people with a monk for a guide.

The rain kept on falling, pat, pat,
Against my plastic umbrella.
I tried the pentagon pagoda,
But the silent figure there,
Does nothing for my heart.
The rice cakes and painted ceiling,
Don’t have the gravitas,
Or your proportions,
Come to that.

So the largest alter bayed me forth,
For the importance of my call.
The complicated statues,
Frivolous when compared to you,
But the size lends importance.
My candle had the company of two,
Both burning at different stages.
But still the prayer here was helped along,
By the gentle knocking of the gong.

Friday, 22 July 2011

Protest Song of the Hopeless


Open black eyes, shine through.
I stare at the still frame,
I don’t even have your name.
They don’t see the need to give it,
It’s not your suffering I need to get,
But the many thousands you represent.   

My eyes drift down to the next story.
About how our nation’s getting lazy.
Is it me or did the world get crazy?
Hosepipe bans and famous one night stands.
A man cries because he needs the surgeons hand,
He’s not fat enough to warrant a gastric band.

 I go back to look at you.
What on earth did you do?
Holding the eyes of a television crew,
The pity of the world in your sight,
One rich donor can end your plight.

Or me. I could.
There’s cloth around your body, another covers your head.
They tell me that your child’s already dead.
Why? Was it something you said?
Because if not, if there’s no reason, then why isn’t it me instead? 

Thursday, 7 July 2011

A tiny extract from my new novel.

Still very much in progress and without a name but this is why there's been a bit of an absence of updates.

Jess: Jess flinched back as she felt the pressure of a human foot where the sloped carpet should have been.
“Sorry.” She looked up into the tall man’s eye and felt herself stop grinning. She couldn’t be sure in this instant that it was him. But of course it was. She wouldn’t feel suddenly cold if it wasn’t. Her heart started beating double time and as quick as the shiver had covered her she felt her face and neck burning.
“Tom.” She knew it was stupid to say someone’s name at them. The man frowned and she felt suddenly that she had made a fool of herself. 

Tom: “Sorry.” A foot was on top of his and a girl was apologising. He looked up to flash her a grin. She was pretty. Shoulder length dark blonde hair, tall. It wasn’t that he was surprised that she knew his name. But the Tequila had made him fuzzy and slow and he couldn’t say anything. He just couldn’t. He stared at Jess for a moment and then she was gone. He saw her flash through the glass doors and followed past his table and on up the concrete path. He found her at the top, leaning on a gate. Hadn’t he expected to see her? Wasn’t that what the butterflies were about? He wasn’t sure now. All he felt was breathless shock.

Thursday, 23 June 2011

The Fire Fly

The fire fly

Firefly with your yellow light,
Help me find my way tonight,
Journeying through the bad land,
Taking you to hold my hand.
Fairy princess in flying form,
You find the daytime far too warm,
So you come awake at dark,
To frolic, fly and lark.





The fire fly


 Long, long ago in a far away place called Japan there lived a tiny baby firefly. She was small, and short and a boring brown all over. Her Mum and Dad thought she was the most beautiful firefly that they had ever seen. They called her Esme. When Esme was old enough to go to school they would let her fly with her other firefly friends. Esme loved to fly. She would swoop and whoop and speed off and do loop the loops around all her friends. Esme was always happy and always laughing.


One day on her way to school she saw some bright, beautiful butterflies that had the same stripes as tigers. She stopped herself in mid-flight halfway through a swirling loop and watched. The butterflies were tall and had thin stretched wings. The pattern on them was so detailed that Esme thought she’d have to look at it for 100 years just to see everything.


When Esme got home from school that day she wasn’t happy and she wasn’t laughing.
“What is wrong?” Asked Mummy Firefly.
“I’m not beautiful.” Esme said sadly.
“You are the most beautiful firefly.” Mummy Firefly said.
“But I’m not as beautiful as a butterfly.”
“Butterflies are different. You are just as beautiful.”
“No. I am only small and short and I’m all boring brown.”
“But you are always happy and always laughing and I think brown is beautiful too.” Sniffed Mummy Firefly because she was all brown too.
“Anyway you just wait and see. Sometimes beauty is inside us.” Esme didn’t know what that meant but she thought that she didn’t want to be sad and jealous any more so she went into the garden and practised her biggest loop the loop until she felt happier.


Esme didn’t have time to think about the butterflies after that. It was a busy time at school because it was nearly Mid-Summer. Mid-summer is the most important holiday in the whole year for fireflies. It always happens on June 21st because that is the day with the most sunshine. Esme had to learn all about Mid-Summer and make cards and decorations for the special day.


On mid-summer’s day Esme’s whole family got together at her house. They had a lot of delicious food to eat like leaves from all sorts of trees and tiny little flowers which were sweet and all different colours. They played games and Esme had a lot of fun playing chase in the sky with her cousins. But the real excitement came in the evening. At eight pm when the sun had properly gone down Esme and her family went to the river.
At the river she saw all her friends from school with their families. They were all very excited because this was the first year they had been old enough to stay up late and join in with the big party at the river. Mummy firefly gave Esme a special white flower to try-it tasted like the most scrummy thing Esme had ever tried. It made her feel so warm and happy inside that she swooped up as high into the sky as she could with her eyes tightly closed against the rushing air.


When Esme opened her eyes she was high above everyone. She blinked because strange bright lights had appeared in her eyes. But no, when she looked again she could see still see them. She darted down a little and sure enough the air above the river was full of lots of tiny magic lights. She flew gently closer and saw that all the lights were fireflies. She zoomed right down to the river and looked inside trying to understand but all she could see was her own brown face, she looked closer her body wasn’t brown anymore. She was a bright, white and green colour. Her body shone like a star and she was beautiful.


Mummy firefly flew next to her she was the same fairy colour as Esme.
“I told you you were beautiful.” Mummy firefly said. Esme just nodded and then all the happiness in the world was inside her so she flew above Mummy firefly and looped the biggest loop the loop you’ve ever seen. She looked just like a shooting star.



Thursday, 9 June 2011

Folded

Folded.
Paper light.
Delicate shape,
Delicate plight.
Creases.
Deft and fine.  
Moulded into,
One girls peace sign.
Edges.
Crisply drawn,
Absolution for,
One shared black dawn.
One Crane.
Bird in flight,
Hope’s fevered wish,
In our darkest night. 

Sunday, 5 June 2011

It’s the Crack in the Ceiling That We Fear:


There’s a crack that gently creeps, 
Across the ceiling while I sleep,  
Planning an ambush to eat me.
There’s nothing  I can say,
To stop the slow decay,  
Of the shelter over me.
I dream that it opens up,
Swallows me in one quick gulp,
That empty black void and me.
Nightmare’s there as my eyes glaze,
Stays with me through every day.
Must be something wrong with me.
Perhaps it’s happening for real,
Truly that’s the way it feels. 
This dark space melting onto me.

If that’s true it’s done its worst.
I guess it doesn’t really hurt.